dear gundel...
Hello my friend.
At first, dont be sad that you was shooted down many times and yao dont have som much experiences as guys on HL. It only takes few hours and you will learn more and you will be still better, ask people, try to understenad and think during flights. I wish you happy landings! For my luck when I started fly on HL, there were still a lot of people who gave mee advice, also I meet some lets say "ugly" :) guys but,.... it was their problems and I think many of them were kids. I was only dissapointed, that it was "somebody" from 504 squadron. But I am still flying and enjoying.